I am here now

I have been searching for my life purpose for 25 years now. I wonder why i am here Sitting alone watching the star that i think slowly losing it spark Asking myself if i am just confuse or too emotional Thinking too much may be. Empty, lonely and lost, Felt like a dog without the owner looking for the reason to live keep moving and preserve for my faith. BUT for somebody living itself is a miracle, For someone that i know,just finding themselves breathing and smell the morning air is a blessing to able to survive for another day is something wonderful. I am just a selfish girl who full of greed and pride compare to them who think just being alive is a miracle I am just a person who didn't know how to be grateful I am just a girl who look up above in the sky but never look what on earth Never realize and take care of my belonging but envy other I am just a women who know how to out the blame on others. Ignoring all the happiness but cherish the sadness. I